Try to spend as much time as I can with Nick. On Wednesday were at his place. Yesterday we bought presents for my friends together, had fun with Enot and Kot (won't translate the nicknames) Today again, but we had watched the new Hobbit. Well, I liked it, now I want to read the book. At Nick's we were just lying in bed, practically sleeping and then talking. Watched the 1st episode of Game of Thrones, hope he'll manage to watch it all 
Then Enot and Kot came, we made pizza and then I had to go home because my parents think it's too early to stay there at night even with a company of friends. No logic, but I know that it's better not to argue with them. Hope by my 18th b-day the situation will change in the way I want it to be.
Then Enot and Kot came, we made pizza and then I had to go home because my parents think it's too early to stay there at night even with a company of friends. No logic, but I know that it's better not to argue with them. Hope by my 18th b-day the situation will change in the way I want it to be.
19:52
About depression
Yes, I'm ill again. That awful cough came and no medicines can cure it. Just as usually. The problem is that I haven't had it for a year or two but now here it is again. Hate it. Today mom made me to do inhalations. It's the worst thing for me because with the machine and all these tubes and a mask I feel like biodegradable waste, defective. This is a kind of my depression I think. It's okay but it doesn't mean I FEEL okay. AT these moments I wanna kill myself.
19:46
About love
Well, seems like I'm all in it. I like the feeling, it's much lighter than with Max. When I think of our dates there's s feeling in my stomach like a balloon gets out slowly from it throught my skin and clothes and flies away. And there's not the only one balloon, there are lots of them. It's very pleasant. I call it "I'm releasing balloons again". Awww
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Oh my god, I'm melting)
Today Nick met me after classes and we went to an Italian restaurant Perchini. It's quite large but lovely and comfortable. The thing that I liked most of all is that there are sofas, not chairs, so I could hug him :3 We ate tasty and satisfying pasta and sweet-stuff. Then we didn't know where to go. Finally we went to Mega City where drank some coffee and were talking till 9 o'clock. Awwww, he's so cute and kind...<3 <3 <3
Gave me a drive home as usual. I came home a few minutes ago but already miss him. Friday, come quickly!!!
Oh and my throat hurts, hope I won't fall ill.
Today Nick met me after classes and we went to an Italian restaurant Perchini. It's quite large but lovely and comfortable. The thing that I liked most of all is that there are sofas, not chairs, so I could hug him :3 We ate tasty and satisfying pasta and sweet-stuff. Then we didn't know where to go. Finally we went to Mega City where drank some coffee and were talking till 9 o'clock. Awwww, he's so cute and kind...<3 <3 <3
Gave me a drive home as usual. I came home a few minutes ago but already miss him. Friday, come quickly!!!
Oh and my throat hurts, hope I won't fall ill.
Lucky day. Handed in my correction work on Latin, written homework which I had written 10 minutes before the beginning of the lesson and new summaries. Answered 6th lexical minimum on Latin, learnt that we'll have a test on 15th December and I'll have to answer 4 more minimums by the time. Okaaay. All the lessons were very quiet, even Shevchenko was calm and friendly. During the 2 first lessons read 2 plays for Ancient Literature. Nick gave a drive to a metro station to extend my transport card and then home. My bag snapped and now I need a new one. Hope I'll buy it during the next weekends.
Our company met again. We decided to go to KF. Well, I can't say I liked the evening. As for me, it was quite boring. KF was overcrowded and we left it early. At Galya's we could only go to sleep and make no noise. So we did. I had to sleep alone this time. I felt a bit lonely and woke up often with no reason. I expected great fun and trash like in October. 
Aww, it has happened.
Nick was a bit late, but presented me a bouquet of white roses for apology. Had lunch at Burrito Brothers, a nice and very small Mexican cafe. Then were walking in a park and talking talking talking. Went to warm to Park House, drinked coffee and talked a lot again. Just about everything. Then he gave me a drive to Granny's again,I didn't want to leave him and we were talking in his car for about 20 minutes while I was warming his hands. I really didn't want to leave, but I had to. I felt my knees shaking when he sweety hug me. I think I'm falling in love.
And today we have officially become a couple 😊
Nick was a bit late, but presented me a bouquet of white roses for apology. Had lunch at Burrito Brothers, a nice and very small Mexican cafe. Then were walking in a park and talking talking talking. Went to warm to Park House, drinked coffee and talked a lot again. Just about everything. Then he gave me a drive to Granny's again,I didn't want to leave him and we were talking in his car for about 20 minutes while I was warming his hands. I really didn't want to leave, but I had to. I felt my knees shaking when he sweety hug me. I think I'm falling in love.
And today we have officially become a couple 😊
Tonight I had an extremely realistic but not very pleasant dream and I MUST write about it right now.
Max and I are still partners and he is still in Moscow, right as in real life. And we still have "free relationship" with him. By the way, many aspects of my real life were in the dream: the place I study at, the way I get home, even my real clothes and so on. One day Max writes to me with great abuse that he knows I sometimes spend time with Nick. He says I'm a bitch (а если перевести на многословный русский, то мразь и тварь), that I don't wait for him and have sex with him (but it's not true neither in the dream nor in reality) and blah-blah-blah. I am shocked. I answer that I only once went to the cinema with Nick, but he continues to abuse me. I got angry and said that (I don't know why) I must not report to him. He becomes more angry and saying he breaks up with me still in a very rude way.
The dream ends when I am telling about the incident Vlad and Galya.
Well, I don't even know what to think about it.
Max and I are still partners and he is still in Moscow, right as in real life. And we still have "free relationship" with him. By the way, many aspects of my real life were in the dream: the place I study at, the way I get home, even my real clothes and so on. One day Max writes to me with great abuse that he knows I sometimes spend time with Nick. He says I'm a bitch (а если перевести на многословный русский, то мразь и тварь), that I don't wait for him and have sex with him (but it's not true neither in the dream nor in reality) and blah-blah-blah. I am shocked. I answer that I only once went to the cinema with Nick, but he continues to abuse me. I got angry and said that (I don't know why) I must not report to him. He becomes more angry and saying he breaks up with me still in a very rude way.
The dream ends when I am telling about the incident Vlad and Galya.
Well, I don't even know what to think about it.
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Strange day. During our second lesson we had a test in the main university building. They said we were going to write Literature but it turned out we wrote Russian. It was very easy. In fact, it was part A and B from our summer exams. I made 2 mistakes in 38 tasks and got 92%. I think it's an excellent result, one of the best in my group. When we came to our building Orehova said we were going to have the 4th lesson instead of that we missed. The problem was that the 4th lesson ends at 14.40 and I had a haircut at 14.00 today. But she said we were going just to write a reproduction and then we were free. Okay, I thought, it shouldn't take much time. But it did.
I ran out of the university at 13.45. Today I realized that my largest fear is to be late. Because while I was hurrying to the bus station I was in real panic. I called granny to ask her to tell the hairdresser I would be late and heard my voice trembling and felt I was going to weep. It was very difficult for me to control myself, but I did.
Finally, I walked as fast as I could from the bus station and came 15 minutes late. The hairdresser said nothing and I felt great relief.
Crazy me.
I ran out of the university at 13.45. Today I realized that my largest fear is to be late. Because while I was hurrying to the bus station I was in real panic. I called granny to ask her to tell the hairdresser I would be late and heard my voice trembling and felt I was going to weep. It was very difficult for me to control myself, but I did.
Finally, I walked as fast as I could from the bus station and came 15 minutes late. The hairdresser said nothing and I felt great relief.
Crazy me.
Parents have just come from the cinema and shocked me. They didn't like Interstellar! They said it was boring. They said there was no action, only useless talks about space and gravitation. OH MY GOD!!! In fact they said "Daughter, your friends and you like shit." I have nothing to say, it was awfully unpleasant to listen to their loud voices saying such things. I really have taken umbrage because of it.
Sadness.
All Sunday I was doing correction work for my Latin classes. But today Shevchenko checked it and it was awful again! Urgh, I have to do it again! Because of the Bad mark for my Latin test I was contingently attested! It's okay, but not as pleasant as only attested. Then she was speaking about ancient literature and said there are no contenders for the automate!!! Let's see. I have never missed her classes, both seminars and lectures, I have read practically all the books from the exam list, I always write summaries about read books and hand them in to her, I work on every seminar, I was among the first students who handed in their reports AND AFTER THAT SHE SAYS THERE ARE NO CONTENDERS FOR THE AUTOMATE!!! WTF, YOU, OLD CRUEL WOMAN?! What the hell is wrong with you?! I'm fucking disappointed.
Happiness.
Finally I have catched Danilova and now I have my first offset in my record book. Mother is on holidays and she will meet me every day at home, I won't feel as lonely as I used to. Today in the gym I managed to do all the standards written in my training diary. And cardio exercises don't make me wanna die anymore. When I was walking to the bus stop I met Irina Ivanovna and Jeanne Valerievna. We were happy to meet each other. Had a talk about the school and the university. They were waiting for the same transport as me and when I was preparing to leave the tram II was looking at me and smiling. This smile made me forget about everything and smile as an idiot Love them.
All Sunday I was doing correction work for my Latin classes. But today Shevchenko checked it and it was awful again! Urgh, I have to do it again! Because of the Bad mark for my Latin test I was contingently attested! It's okay, but not as pleasant as only attested. Then she was speaking about ancient literature and said there are no contenders for the automate!!! Let's see. I have never missed her classes, both seminars and lectures, I have read practically all the books from the exam list, I always write summaries about read books and hand them in to her, I work on every seminar, I was among the first students who handed in their reports AND AFTER THAT SHE SAYS THERE ARE NO CONTENDERS FOR THE AUTOMATE!!! WTF, YOU, OLD CRUEL WOMAN?! What the hell is wrong with you?! I'm fucking disappointed.
Happiness.
Finally I have catched Danilova and now I have my first offset in my record book. Mother is on holidays and she will meet me every day at home, I won't feel as lonely as I used to. Today in the gym I managed to do all the standards written in my training diary. And cardio exercises don't make me wanna die anymore. When I was walking to the bus stop I met Irina Ivanovna and Jeanne Valerievna. We were happy to meet each other. Had a talk about the school and the university. They were waiting for the same transport as me and when I was preparing to leave the tram II was looking at me and smiling. This smile made me forget about everything and smile as an idiot
Love them.