Well, I'm back with writing in English.
On Sat Nick invited to his place. Enot and Kot also came. And Kot's girlfriend. Well, I'd rather call her a woman-friend because she's 27. But it's Kot's own deal.
Pizza, video games and good talks- everything needed for a good quiet evening with friends.
Then intimate talks with Nick till 5 am. I like it. There's always sth special between two people during such talks. More trust, more openness. That's fantastic.

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Не хочу писать об этом на английском, ибо родной язык богаче. Сегодня утром я проснулась с тревожными мыслями. Я внезапно вспомнила одну фразу, которая прозвучала во время нашей ночной беседы в лагере с классом. Макс был лучше. Почему-то эти слова сейчас ранят меня чуть ли не до слез. Потому что это не так. Чем он был лучше? Тем, что мы все проучились вместе 11 лет и хорошо знаем друг друга? Тем, что он более открытый? Злюсь на себя за то, что не задала эти вопросы тогда. И как вообще это понимать? Он им не нравится? И что мне теперь делать?
Макс не был лучше. Он был страшным эгоистом. Эти его перепады настроения, когда внезапно весь мир становился плохим, отвратительным, настроенным против него, когда он отвергал мои порывы заботы о нем. Эти периодические телефонные разговоры допоздна, когда он выливал на меня все, что в нем накопилось, застявляя меня чувствовать себя неблагодарным дерьмом. Нет, спасибо, я больше не хочу и рада, что это закончилось.
Да, конечно, я понимаю, что мы с Никитой вместе не очень долго и что наверняка у него есть свои скелеты в шкафу. Но сейчас все так, как у меня никогда ни с кем не было. И мне это нравится.
Просто, почему бы не дать человеку шанс проявить себя?

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First week of new semester

Well, to tell you the truth, I've missed the University. But studying is hard.
The number of English classes was decreased, now I have 5 classes instead of 6. This means we'll have to report on individual reading on after classes on fixed days. That's not very bad, but I have to remember about these days. Oh, and now we have to read more, but I like the change.
The History of Foreign Literature (HFL) is even worse than in the 1st semester. I have to study for seminars to get an offset more than I've studied for an automate! That's horrible. But I think everything'll be alright.
My PE classes had practically coincided with classes at my driving school so I moved from darts to aerobics which take place right after classes.
We've started learning German. Our teacher is an awesome positive man, I really like him. And I've found out that our German classes at school which seemed to be absolutely useless have some results and I even remember some things, so it;s easier for me than for my groupmates to start studying the language.
Shevchenko made me a bit happier saying that an automate on Latin is easier to get than on Ancient Literature. That's really fine because I don't want to take an exam on this shit. Hope I'll manage to get this automate.
During the week I met Nick only once. Yesterday. That's because he has lots of debts that he must pass as quickly as possible and he has been studying all week long. But yesterday was a nice day. He gave me pink roses even though I don't think St. Valentine's day is an important holiday and hadn't been waiting for a present. But it's very pleasant to get small presents like this. Spent the day as usually- at his place. There was s nice phrase he said: "We live like in a fairytale: eat, drink, watch films, disport..." I can't wait for warm snowless time when we'll be able to walk for a long time. We're like the animals who hibernate and spend all the time inside in winter. It's nice, of course, but sth else would be fine :3

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Raduga

I liked the trip. Just as usually.
Crazy photos with Ira B. Sausages. Bourbon. Secret and very personal talks with Nastya and Galya in a dark closed room. I missed such talks. Andrey's guitar. Little nice hill. Seemed like we hadn't left, like we still were schoolkids. So warm. I love my classmates and IB.
P.S. No photoshop, it's the magic of panorama)

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Winter holidays: summary

About session.
Excellent results, all the subjects were closed automatically, no exams.
About books.
I've read quite a lot of books. "Dandelion Wine" by Ray Bradbury in English, finished "Lolita" by Nabokov, "A Street Cat Named Bob" by James Bowen, extremely large "The Wolf of Wall Street" by Jordan Belfort and "Loneliness on the Net" by Janusz Wisniewski. Not bad for about 40 days.
About friendship.
Gin and a gingerbread house with Nastya and Galya. Skating with Ira N., Galya, Nastya Ira B. and some others. Slava's birthday. 2 days with Galya, Nastya, Nick, Vlad and Artyom at my place. Cloud Hookah. School. My birthday. Raduga. Not as much as it could be, but I enjoyed every meeting.
About love.
I'm all in it.

All in all these winter holidays were the longest and most exciting ones.

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I hate books about love. Why? Because everything's there described so beautifully, there are so much delights and cute details. And if it's a first-person narration there are such descriptions of behavior, appearance and character of another man that you'll never meet anywhere else. They do never repeat. Unwittingly in such moments you take a thought how you could be described in a book. And relationships are always so unusual, you read and it seems like you get into a man's soul. And everything's so beautiful, like in paradisal gardens. And the most awful thing is that many people expect the same things from real life. Stupid, they confuse fantasy with reality and their dreams break on it every time and the man gives up on life. Whose fault in it? Authors of books who unbelievably well describe their dreams or those who really think that it can be real? To tell you the truth, I have never heard about a bookish love in reality. Never. That's why you have to learn to content things that you have, understand that even this is not available to many people and appreciate every moment of your relationship, I'm speaking not only about love, but about family and friendship ties, but not wait till you'll finally get what you've been reading and dreaming about. Although, on the other hand, if your beautiful dream is available, why can't you start making steps in that way? Just take matters in your own hands, but not whine that you're unhappy and life is unfair with you. It's up to you.

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best b-day party ever

Well, now I'm 18.
The day began when I was woken up by a doorbell saying granny and granddad came to congratulate me. They presented me money and 19 beautiful white roses. It was very nice) Then preparations. A bouquet of roses from dad. Nick came. Presented a toy bear and a webcam. My 18th b-day I decide to celebrate in a rented house. The party was awesome, all my friends came and I was really happy. Tasty food, good drinks, billiard, karaoke, loud music and dances. Everyone enjoyed themselves and even no one felt sick. It's very pleasant to hear that your party was amazing and everyone liked it. I love my friends, I love Nick, thank you all for being with me on such an important day.

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On Tuesd we suddenly visited school. I was glad to see my teachers, to talk to them and so on. Heard a lot of congratulations about my session *pride* . All in all, it's all the same there exept some repairs. Even the food in the canteen *O* Then Nastya, Semen and Misha ate some pizza and went home.
Yesterday Nick and me had a special date. 2 months. Where are they? Time runs so fast that it seems like I'll be 80 soon. Watched Birdman. Well, it's quite unusual and I liked it. I came home latee than usual because of the film, but it's OK.

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Lumen is coming 25th Match and I'm thinking about going to their concert. Well, I haven't listened them for a long time but I still really love them and they are remaining being my favourite Russian group. The only problem was that I had no one who could join be but Nick said he could, so now I have no reasons not to go. Hmmm, I need to think a bit.

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Yesterday finally met all my friends. I came to Nastya, then Vlad and Galya came and Artem drove us to Cloud Hookah. Nick and Enot unexpectedly joined us too. Well, it's quite a nice place. But it seems like I've forgotten how to smoke hookah because I started coughing every time. That's sad, but, perhaps, it's better for my health not to smoke at all All in all, I came there so spend time with my friends and I really enjoyed the meeting ^.^

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I love being with Nick. He makes me feel beautiful. He makes me forget about everything. He makes me laugh. I love him.

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I miss my friends, we haven't met for a long time

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Today I finally closed the session. All are automates. That's awesome. It's very pleasant to see that your work of the whole semester wasn't unavailing. Thus I have 3 exams for "excellent" and 7 offsets. And no stresses related with passing exams. Hope I'll manage to continue studying in this way. Huh, to tell you the truth, I'm a student-freeloader. Really. I understand that these automates saved my life because I would become gray-haired if I had to pass these exams. Especially History (having to remember my school leaving exams, omg, to survive this horror again wouldn't be fun) and Ancient Literature (this old crazy woman is extremely strict and asks you 1001 question) So I'm very happy and having long lazy pleasant holidays now :3

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mad days

I've been preparing for my Literature exam for 3 days. On the consultation Perepelkin gave out our tests and said that those who got 5 would answer one questions of two and that was all. I got 5 but I was disappointed because I was said that most students get an automate on his subject. And when I came to the exam on 17th January he suddenly called everyone to a classroom and said that those who had no omissions and debts get an automate and others answer only one question. I got no omissions or debts so I got my 5)
On 15th January was Nick's b-day. Enot and I gave him hard disk as a present and it seems like it was a good present) We came to Nick's place in the evening, presented him the hard disk, he fed us and then we were playing gta5 for some time. In Enot's car we were speaking on frank themes. He told me about his relations with Dasha and that he was going to break up with her (so he finally did) and I was answering his questions about my life. These were quite lamp talks, now I see that he's a very good friend and a rather reasonable man.
Yesterday Nick had hi b-day celebration. There were 5 of us: Nick, Enot, Kot, Nick's brother and me. I liked the evening though we got drunk quite early and went to sleep at about 2 am Today's day Nick and I spent in bed. We were sleeping, eating, watching GOT and having some more joy. Love him.
On Tsd dad and I will go to a driving school and soon I'll have my first lessons there. That's fine ^.^

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Today my group had their exam on ancient literature. I really worried of Nastya and was really happy when she said she had got 4. The next exam is Literature and it is the only one exam about which I know nothing. I mean, whether I get an automate or not. And the saddest thing is that I'll learn about it only the day before the exam. So I have to get prepared for it in both cases. Today I tried to. But it was awfully difficult to make myself learn sth and finally I learned only about 5 examination tickets( Hate myself.

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Yesterday evening I finally finished reading Dandelion vine. I liked it. Its atmosphere. Its people. Its life. Now I want summer to come) It's my first book in English that I was reading myself, on purpose, not as a hometask. And it's not the last one The next one, I think, will be the first book of HP. Or not. If I start reading HP in English I'll start buying all the books. But I have no money for it. That's sad, because I really want to read it. Then, I think I'll finally start reading the Hobbit.

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In Thrsd Vlad, Galya and Nick came. We ordered pizza, Galya cooked mulled wine and then we were playing zombie and vampire munchkin till late at night.
And yesterday Nastya and Artyom joined our company. Drank some wine, watched funny videos, listened to Artyom's stories and laughed a lot.
I like such homely gatherings. At these moments I feel like I'm the happiest man in the world.
Today I had a nice dream. It was a warm and green part of a year. And I came to the University. Everyone around was quite sad about it but not me. I was very happy and was talking Nastya-from-Sizran about it while sleepy and gloomy people around were staring at me and thinking I'm crazy This dream, I think, shows one more time that I really like what I'm doing ^_^